We Never Know Why

Call me gluten for punishment, but I have a heart to help those that are less fortunate. There seems to be people within my path lately that are less fortunate and I try to offer a helping hand. There is one young lady that I can't figure out if she wants something more, but feels unworthy to receive it or is truly into her stuff. She is a young mother with a 17 month old. She didn't give him up for adoption when she found out she was pregnant because she thought he was her meal ticket. Now what?  The mother and child is homeless. Daddy is in another unhealthy relationship because he is being abused. I wanted to give them a hand up, but I could only give a hand out. I felt lead so I did what I thought was best.  I paid for a hotel to get the mother to sit still and give the boy some rest. However within less than an hour I returned to give her some food for the child and they weren't there. I left the food and a note with a contact number to call if she needed a hand up. I took a friend with me so I wasn't alone, it may have been my only smart choice in this situation.  We walked the grounds in case she was having a smoke at the side of the building, but nothing. There was a man of God there that spoke life into our hearts. He said "God will bless you for your heart is true." I cried out to God for the lesson here. My heart was heavy and tears filled my eyes.  With all of the recent activities with the homeless, I have been given a vision to open a homeless shelter. When I said to God "yes Lord, I will do as you lead to get it up and running,"  I have had people walk in my path that can and will help me. It is amazing, but that is God. There are some people within our community that will tell me it can't be done but I know what my God says about that....."with God nothing is impossible."  Well on my way home, I heard the question "are you going to quit? Just give up it's not worth it." I quickly said anything done for the Lord is worth it. Helping this young women wasn't about her response. No it was about my obedience to Christ and His mission. It is about God pursuing this young women. God didn't give up on me and he won't give up on those He loves. I woke in the early hours from a dream. It was odd. It was as if the days events continued in my dream. I was walking the parking lot as if I was looking for her, just as my friend and I did at the hotel. This time a car, like a Lincoln, turned into the parking lot. As the car passed by I saw two men in the front seat and the young lady in the right side of the back seat. As they passed, her head was leaning on her right hand, had the same shirt on when I left her, and I could see my head turning and eyes watching them as they pass. Her face was exhausted looking eyes had an expression of careless attitude.  The next scene in this dream was of me. It was a picture of who I was and not who I am now. One of the two young men from the car was trying to get me to have sex with him. I said "no" grabbed my shoes and was leaving. The man followed me outside and the sweet talk began. You know ladies that " you're so beautiful. Any man would be grateful to belong to you." This time in my dream, I chose to walk away. He didn't chase me and wasn't violent in any fashion. It was my dream and I think I had taken the thought captive in my dream.  I woke up at that moment. I was wowed by this. The first thing that came to my mind was to repent for agreeing with any part that wasn't of God. Next scripture came to my mind. "when you who are spiritually strong see a brother in sin, go a gently lift him up, but be careful lest you fall." Satan wants to trip us up and separate us from a loving God because he wants what God has and is. Satan will never have it though. I belong to God the Father Almighty and I am His. I choose the good guys team.  But what about others? Some people don't know Jesus Christ and need Him in their lives. I want an opportunity to introduce them to Him. I don't care if the young women accepts my help, but I care about her seeing God's hand on her life. She may get the baby taken away if she keeps up on her road or may end up in worse conditions. However, I did what I was called to do. I introduced her to Jesus none the less. More importantly, I know that I must persevere for the prize of Jesus Christ. I have to remember too, Jesus couldn't even save the whole world.  ~Be encourage that God doesn't waste a hurt or help Marjorie