Are You Being Shaken?

Have you been separated from someone you love? Have you intentionally separated yourself from someone or a group of people?  How did it leave you feeling? Sometimes we set ourselves up to be attacked by the enemy and we don't even realize it until afterwards. I have found that when we separate ourselves from the body of Christ we really set ourselves up for more than we asked for; at least I did.
I learned that when I separated from my friends and family in Christ, I opened a door for Satan to come in and attack me. I was questioning who God was (if you read my previous blog entry).
The next thing that happened was that I was separated from the love I received from my friends and family in Christ. When I was involved in Church I was encouraged when I greeted them on Sunday mornings by their warm hugs or hand shakes. I had a few brothers and sisters ask me how I was doing and if anything exciting happened in the week. I really found people in my path that cared about me. I knew that I could call on anyone of them if I was in trouble.  The funny thing is looking back now, is that I didn't call on any of them. None the less, I know now that I can and should call up a friend.
Following the lack of love I missed, confusion settled in. Now you may have heard that confusion is not from God. Yet, I have read in a book or two that God does bring on confusion. However, what I was confused about wasn't a healthy confusion and it wasn't from God. I was confused on who God was. I was listening to the serpent that met Eve in the garden. She got confused when Satan twisted God's words. He did the same thing with me. I was confused when listening to man's words instead of God's words. I know that the great "I am" rescued me from my self pity and dark well of hell. I was not looking into what I knew to be truth, but what someone else knew.  I now know what the statement means when told "find out for yourself."
Last separating myself from God's love left me in a state of torment. I was tormented by my own questions, doubts, and I was double minded. The body of Christ is there to help us to be sharpened by another iron. I've heard people say "I don't have to go to church to have a relationship with Christ." This may be true, but I know now that God tells us to go and fellowship with other believers for edification. I need someone praying for me, over me, and with me. I can not walk in this world alone. Neither can anyone else unless they enjoy the state of confusion.
Then I was reminded "you wouldn't be attacked like this if you weren't doing the right things for God." I believe I forgot who I worked for. I was trying my hardest to be humble and work for the Lord. I believe my  "self" got in the way and I was attacked. Sometimes trying to do right can lead us into the wrong when our focus is off.
I have learned who I can talk to when I need a friend who understands me. I know what I should be doing and where I should be going. We are not meant to be walking this earth alone and that is why God created families; both physical and spiritual.
If you find yourself walking alone and in torment. I encourage you to pray with me.
Father, according to your loving kindness and tender mercies, blot out my sins, wash me thoroughly and forgive me of my sins. For they are forever before me and I don't want to do wrong anymore. Help me to know YOU from YOU and YOUR word.

~Be encouraged He is holding you safely and still as you are being shaken.