Does this sound like a statement you have proclaimed in your lifetime? I can tell you I have heard people say this and I have made proclamations similar to them. I have heard the arguments about losing your faith. Some people say you can and others say you cannot. I can say that the human race are the ones that walk away; not God.
I want you to know that you can think, say and do things against God, but He is still going to love you. You can do things against God, but He is still waiting for you with open arms. You can put Him in your own box and dress Him up anyway you want, but He is still a big, big God. I wasn't told that God loved me with an extravagant love and I can hurt Him, but He will never turn away from me. I wasn't told that God is a soft hearted God with a strong wrath. I thought He was a constant punisher, but He's not.
The great news is that God does great things for sinners, like you and me, who come to Him in repentance and faith. We return to Him with our mess, brokenness, sin-stained lives, and He gives us, in Christ, forgiveness with a brand new start. The Holy Spirit is to convict us about sin, righteousness and judgement.
When you are tired of holding onto the world and all the emptiness it has to offer, you will find rest and restoration. Your life will make a change for the better.
Look, some people think that God is out to hurt and harm them. Some people think that God is a God of destruction and pain. I am here to tell you that He is NOT. He walks with you in your struggles of sin and pain. He has plans to prosper you and not to harm you; if you would just throw your hands up and give in.
~Be encouraged, God knows your hurtful statements and disbelief. He loves you no matter what you do or don't do. You can't stop Him.