Reused Pain

When you are in  the midst of pain it is difficult to see past it.
Oh, I am human, I make mistakes, I have flesh and it screams, it cries, and hurts.
I always go back to the cross because that is the only thing that is secure / stable.  I can tell you I am not stable and I am not a rock. I have to stand on the rock when my life around me feels like sinking sand. Do you know what I am talking about? When the things in our life appear to be falling apart and the only thing that is constant is Christ.
That is where I am  today; working through my pain.
I hope that today, you will decide to make a real difference in your life through throwing your hands up and saying "I can't do this anymore." I hope you scream "I hate what I am doing." I pray you will trust in what you cannot see and more so, trusting in the Creator whom you cannot touch, but is ever present.
 It is in those moments you change, you grow, and the potter can mold you in his hands.
I am a mere mortal, looking towards what is in front of me, but unable to move. I cannot move because I live in fear. I am afraid of what I cannot see. The funny thing is, I know what I need to do next and can't seem to move to the next step either.
Today, I am in a dismal place. I am in a lonely place, but I know that God is with me. He told me so and I know he is truth.
Lord, I am desparate for you today. I need you today. I need you to show up in my life. I praise you that you are an on time God. I wait for you Lord and I look for you to come. Come Lord Jesus come. Holy Spirit, I ask you to work in my life and in those around me. I trust in the Lord and I rejoice in Him.
I share my heart because that is where the Lord lives. I live not for myself, but for him.
May you go in peace today, as I will also. So let it be.