Disobeying Stinks!

If you have been reading my entries, you know that I have been reading the Bible and plan on reading it through to the end. I am reading in Deuteronomy and came across the passage about how Moses was forbidden to enter the promised land (Deut. 3:23-29).
These passages talks about how Moses was talking to the people of Israel who have survived and are about to enter into the land of Jordan.
I can only imagine the anguish Moses' heart must have gone through. I imagine his face being drenched with tears as he talks to the Lord about it one last time and then to his peers. I can imagine him realizing how huge of a mistake he made that day when he disobeyed God after hitting the rock and water poured out from it.
Have you ever made an "oops, wish I hadn't done that" moment? I believe that is how Moses felt.
God is a man of his word and he repeated himself not once but twice in these passages to make sure Moses knew he was not going to enter into the land of Jordan. Moses was able to see over the land of Jordan, but he couldn't touch it: ouch! A kid looking in the window of the chocolate store, but can't touhc it.
Being a parent, I remember times when I told my kids they couldn't do something as their punishment for being disobedient. I see Moses as the child who did something wrong and he can't go to Disney. Now the car is loaded, the other kids are excited and exuberant about seeing Mickey Mouse, riding the roller coasters, and eating lots of different stuff.  Moses can't go. Ouch number two! That hurts.
Maybe you know what is going to happen next in Moses' life, but I don't. I can only speculate that right now.
I believe I understand the scripture that says "Delight yourself in the LORD and He will give you the desires of your heart." (Ps 37:4 NKJ)
When things go wrong there are many reasons why we didn't get what we wanted. Most of the time it's because our old self gets in the way.
What is your desire today?
Who or what are you delighting in today?

Just a thought as I was reading.
~ Marjorie