Word For My Soul Today is "Hope."

Sadie Mae after a walk in the park.

This week I had the pleasure and pain of giving my precious heart, Sadie Mae, to a young lady who needed her more than I did. Shelby is fifteen with some health issues and Sadie Mae will help her to heal.  I know it is a moving of God's hand because of how swiftly it happened. Now that it has been a short time of distance, my heart is not as broken as it was because of the hope my soul has found in Jesus. Sadie is on her mission field and so now I ask; "what am I suppose to do?"  I feel a change coming but I do not know the details only God does. It may be nothing more than being unconsumed with responsibility for my precious love. It may be that my schedule is open now to work late or early if needed; I can take a trip out of country or state without worrying over her. I do not know, however, what I do know is that my hope is truly in the Lord. I've experienced the emotional wheel of pain, tears, joy, peace, etc., but most importantly I have found peace and hope. God has a plan for my life and Sadie's no matter where we are. We both have God's best interest on our lives and He is using us according to His purpose because He has called us to work.
I couldn't figure out why my closest friends didn't call me after hearing the news of what I had done. I cried over the silence in my house, but then the Lord showed up. I sensed He wanted  to be my comforter, my healer, and my covering. I asked Him to show himself to me that I needed him physically, I needed his comfort physically because that is what I only know. I could hear him say; "not yet."
The next day I went to my friends, the Rivers, house for lunch.  This couple who has adapted me as their daughter, wrapped their arms around me tight and prayed over me. In the midst of the prayer and tight hug, the Lord quickened my heart and said; "Here I am."  I then realized that I had two parents praying over me. I had not had this kind of experience as a child nor an adult; I was in the midst of God's secret hiding place and resting in His arms.
The Lord is alive and He's not dead. He is very much in the small and large details of our lives. He gives us a hope and future WHEN WE ARE READY TO SURRENDER OUR HEARTS COMPLETELY AND TOTALLY TO HIM.
Later that day, I had a friend send me an email saying the following and it was my confirmation of the "not yet."  This is how powerful our God works in our lives in the small and large things in our lives.

"I'm so glad you are feeling better.  The Lord just wants to wrap you up & hold you a while.  Let Him.  For some reason I feel that maybe He wants to be your main or only source of comfort right now.  That's not to say He doesn't want you to receive comfort & encouragement from your friends.  He just wants to be the one you cuddle to.  That could be the reason for feeling the need to be alone.  We are not ever alone because He is with us.  During those cuddle times though, He can just love on us while we absorb all we need from Him.  It renews our energy, strength, peace, etc.  Just a thought."

Psalm 33:18; 20-21
But the eyes of the Lord are on those who fear (reverence) him,
on those who hope is in his unfailing love.
We wait in hope for the Lord;
He is our help and shield.
In Him our hearts rejoice,
for we trust in His holy name.

Isaiah 26:3
You will keep in perfect peace those whose minds are steadfast, because they trust in you.
God has me in His perfect peace because if I wasn't trusting Him I would be a mess. I know what it feels like to hurt so bad that if I did not have the mind of Christ, I could become a cutter, relapse into drugs, alcohol, or sex. However, my hope is now in the Lord and His perfect plan for my life. I'm ready to go where He goes, I am ready to follow Him wherever He leads me. I am ready to do whatever it takes to bring another soul to the cross of Jesus Christ wherever that may be.

If you cannot see how much I love the Lord and how much He loves me; you are missing the big picture here. It isn't about me at all. It is about you, the reader. God wants you to let go of whatever it is that may be hindering  you from being all that He has created you to be; for Him. Let go and allow for your hope to be in Him. He has great plans for you to prosper you and to give you a hope and a future.

~Be encouraged; Love goes a long way!