This weekend I have enjoyed my grandson, Seth, more than words can express. We laughed so much together our bellies were sure to pop. We ran and played, we wheeled down a roller skate rink (so to speak it was at a church) and we ate like noone needs to know.
At mid-day Saturday, I was so worn out, as he was, that I needed a nap. I could feel it in my back and bones. It has been an eye opener, I'm not young as I once was. I had it in my mind that my body could look 30 again (good and in shape), my heart was good and can take anything, and I can multi-task with a child again. My eyes have been OPENED!
Okay, so getting old gracefully is my choice today. Here I am again, back to making choices. Can't I just sit on the beach and let the world roll away without choices? Oh, that's a choice.
Well, I want to be around longer and I know what I must do in order to see Seth grow up more, laugh, and play more. I'm choosing to take care of myself. I'm gonna work out again (oh, yes I had to stop for a while), eat healthier, and stay active like always.
This weekend helped me to recognize something else. I can come, go and do as I please. It's time to live and not sit in my place and watch the world pass me by. Now I'm going to get up and go do. I want to explore things, see things, and experience new things. I know I cannot do this if I'm sitting around or doing the same thing I've always done.
I'm excited. I've decided to pack a bag full of some things like a magnifine glass, a notebook, a reading book, some clothes, and maybe a bathing suit to sit at the beach in. I'm going to explore God's world. There are things I've always wanted to do and I'm going to go do them. I look at what I don't have to what God does have.
Yay, that's it. I"m packing my pup up and going exploring, like Dora the Explorer. Oh, we didn't watch cartoons this weekend, but we did cuddle and watch a movie. Thanks to this time with Seth, I've grown up little bit with him. I'm learned something about myself in the process and I've enjoyed every minute of it.
I can't wait to see the butterflies, magnify an ant, watch the foam roll up from the waves on the beach, and watch children laughing in the parks. I'm off to plan and plot my new adventures.
Wow, the world didn't end and I'm making a new beginning. This feels good.
2 Corinthians 5:17
Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come: The old has gone, the new is here!
I feel like a butterfly that has been in a cacoon and ready to spread it's wings. I'm ready to tell the world what Jesus has done for me today. It's a simple thing, but it's in the simple that huge things happen.
~ Be in peace and grace
Marjorie
Everyone needs encouragement and I want to encourage you today. I hope you will enjoy today's write up.
Sunday, May 22, 2011
Thursday, May 19, 2011
Masquerade
I tried to be strong and courageous days before and the day of waiting for the test results from my doctor. I wanted to give the appearance that I was all right and nothing was wrong. I wanted to give my peers the lie that I was not worried about the results. Then, I broke the morning of. As I was praying with a friend, my fears came to surface. I felt the fear and anxiety from the unknown.
I almost cancelled my appointment. I told those close to me that I would go and promised that I would follow up with the results.
I realized that all I was doing was masquerading my emotions. I was not being transformed and transparent in my situation. Isn't that what the world tells us to do? Do what feels good, it's all right.
So was I wrong for worrying about the unknown? I kept repeating to myself "be strong and courageous." I also kept praying "Lord, it's no surprise to you, please don't let it be a surprise to me either, help me to be strong and courageous."
I think the Lord used this to show me that we can get lost in the world and pretend to be something we're not. We loose ourselves in the process of pleasing others. We are to be more concerned with pleasing our creator because when this life is over, we will answer to Him for our responses to this life.
Here I am again, in need of calling a doctor and making another appointment. I'm procrastinating because I don't want the results. Why not? If it's a minor problem then all this worry is for nothing and if it's a major problem then it has to be dealt with anyways. I think I am weighting the scales.
"If I do this then that will happen and if this should happen then that will happen."
God is the only who knows what was, is, and is to come. So why worry? I've been taught it is a sin to worry because the Lord tells us 365 times in the Word "not to be anxious, fret, or fear." I'm human though, that is an emotion, isn't it? So now there is something else to consider.
"Iy, Yiy, Yiy," as Ricky Ricardo would say.
I surrender all. I'm going to make this really easy for myself and ask simple questions, Lord what do you want me to do? Lord would you place the right doctor in my path? Lord, would you encourage me and strengthen me to make that call?
I've also been taught that with God all things are possible and apart from him I can do nothing. He, Jesus Christ, taught me that.
So, today is a new day. God has given us all things new under the heavens today. How will you use it?
How am I going to use it? I think I will begin by saying thank you, press forward and persevere through this trial of my own.
How about you?
~ Be in peace and grace
Marjorie
I almost cancelled my appointment. I told those close to me that I would go and promised that I would follow up with the results.
I realized that all I was doing was masquerading my emotions. I was not being transformed and transparent in my situation. Isn't that what the world tells us to do? Do what feels good, it's all right.
So was I wrong for worrying about the unknown? I kept repeating to myself "be strong and courageous." I also kept praying "Lord, it's no surprise to you, please don't let it be a surprise to me either, help me to be strong and courageous."
I think the Lord used this to show me that we can get lost in the world and pretend to be something we're not. We loose ourselves in the process of pleasing others. We are to be more concerned with pleasing our creator because when this life is over, we will answer to Him for our responses to this life.
Here I am again, in need of calling a doctor and making another appointment. I'm procrastinating because I don't want the results. Why not? If it's a minor problem then all this worry is for nothing and if it's a major problem then it has to be dealt with anyways. I think I am weighting the scales.
"If I do this then that will happen and if this should happen then that will happen."
God is the only who knows what was, is, and is to come. So why worry? I've been taught it is a sin to worry because the Lord tells us 365 times in the Word "not to be anxious, fret, or fear." I'm human though, that is an emotion, isn't it? So now there is something else to consider.
"Iy, Yiy, Yiy," as Ricky Ricardo would say.
I surrender all. I'm going to make this really easy for myself and ask simple questions, Lord what do you want me to do? Lord would you place the right doctor in my path? Lord, would you encourage me and strengthen me to make that call?
I've also been taught that with God all things are possible and apart from him I can do nothing. He, Jesus Christ, taught me that.
So, today is a new day. God has given us all things new under the heavens today. How will you use it?
How am I going to use it? I think I will begin by saying thank you, press forward and persevere through this trial of my own.
How about you?
~ Be in peace and grace
Marjorie
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